October 8, 1956
(At about 6 a.m., before Mother appeared on the balcony)
“Be always at the height of yourself, in all circumstances.”
Then I wondered when and how I am at the height of myself. And this is what I saw:
Two things which were parallel and concomitant – that is, they are always together:
One – identity with the Origin, which imparts an absolute serenity and perfect detachment to the action.
The other – identity with the supreme Grace, which obliterates and abolishes all errors committed in the action by whomsoever and whatsoever – and which annuls all the consequences of these errors.
And the moment I perceived this, I saw that my third attitude in action, which is the will for progress for the whole earth as well as for each particular individual, was not the height of my being.
(later, at 10 a.m.)
One is never anything but a divine apprentice: the Divine of yesterday is only an apprentice to the Divine of tomorrow... No, I am not speaking of a progressive manifestation – that is much farther below.
When I am at my highest, I am already too high for the manifestation.
I have gone far beyond what I wrote this morning.
What if the human is too heavy, too narrow, too obscure to follow you?
No, it is exactly the opposite of what you are saying. It is not that the Divine in his divinity is opposed to his own manifested self – He is very far beyond, beyond the necessity for Grace; He perceives his unique and exclusive responsibility, and that it is He and He alone who must change in His Manifestation so that all may change.
(later, at 1 p.m.)
Won't you at least take a flower?
I wanted to take this little rose [“Tenderness for the Divine”], for I consider it to be the manifestation nearest to divine Love. It's disinterested, spontaneous, intimate.
This is what I wanted to take with me to my super-heaven, as the most precious thing in the human heart.